by Manjit Handa
Spring-cleaning is in the air. There is big talk of how we should not only clean our houses and yards but also the bodies, which should be rid of the toxic matter— renewed and revitalized for the life ahead. Of course there is also the talk about cleaning the soul. But how many of us really take it that seriously?
So many white lies. .How easily we speak’em. So much so that they become an integral part of our life. The misery of the situation is that we don’t even feel that there is anything wrong with it. We want to ignore someone or his call we fake we never “got the message”. Better still, deny we ever had his number. He talks and we fake interest. That is particularly the time we are focused “on something more important in our lives”. Always verbally “willing” to help but when the time comes, “we were at an important meeting”. Constantly projecting and posing innocent or the ignorant one. Generally the “fake-all” kind think that they had their way. Nobody knew. Mind you, most of the times the other party knows. With the sheer pleasure of the fact that he is in the same boat, faking things. Or if he is the “genuine” kind (who does not indulge in anything wicked, by choice, to be a good human being), he still knows, because after all he has had the experience with so many of “your kind” earlier.
But never mind. There is always a tomorrow to begin things afresh. There will be another morning, another Spring, another tabula rasa to start things afresh. Well again, if not in this life, there might still be another, to give TRUTH a try. As long as things do not go wrong in our life we never think that living it fallaciously was even a big deal. Shockingly there are some, who continue the life of deceit even in bad times, thinking what worse could now happen.
As long as nothing seems at stake, it is all well.
The heart of the matter is that it is difficult to be truthful and untainted and it takes an effort to survive with that. Ultimately all the crap of seemingly harmless lies piles up, making us grotesque creatures—more heinous than you would ever imagine. Because when we deceive others, WE become deceitful. When we talk lies, WE become liars. The ultimate harm done is our own. It does not matter what we did to others or how successful we were in tricking someone. What matters is what we did to OURSELVES.
Well, it is the trap. An invisible one.
Seeking to be outside the trap,
Manjit
